Even in Unwellness you can exercise gratitude.
July 1st, 2023 did not begin on a high note for me. But! It began and I was here to see it, even it was butt down in my own waste. To be fair the illness was ushered in by June 30th. Nevertheless, I was able to see July 1st come and I was able to see it go. It was a rough weekend. I suffered a sinus infection, a throat infection and a serious bout of incontinent. Incontinent, that very well could be a result of the stomach flu? whew!! Quite a humbling experience. While shitting myself, my bed was not a thrill, I was grateful. Grateful you ask, yeah because I could clean up after myself. Sure it was one of the grimacing act from beginning to end but I didn't allow the experience to deteriorate my personality. And! I still found moments of laughter, even at my own expense. I was eternally grateful.
My eldest daughter came the night before (Friday night - Oh what a night) and put me to bed and my sister came the next day and did my 💩💩 laundry plus. I did not feel totally out of it but I did have a few cataclysmic and dizzying moments, enough to designate myself to one area of my home - the bedroom near the washroom. Through the "shit storm", literally. I was lucid and determined to see the UP side to the experience. What you may ask? I could wash myself. I had access to food and drink though I couldn't fully partake, I had no major physically or mentally debilitating pain. Through it all I could think and communicate coherently, that is something to be thankful for in my estimation.
On the road to recovery.
Am I 100% no, absolutely not but I am getting there. I have gloriously regained control of my Sphincters. Never will I ever take for granted the ability to hold ones shit! Quite frankly it's a beautiful thing.
Gratitude....
Absolutely, glory be for the little things...
- My daughter grabbing the bowl fast enough Soni could safely empty my stomach.
- My daughter helping me to bed
- My sister coming and doing all my 💩💩💩 laundry.
- Me regaining control of my Sphincters muscles, Hallelujah!!
- Me being able to eat again albeit slowly
- Me having more good moments than not so great ones.
*😔, Life is good, though at time challenging.
I like your attitude. Very much. So much to be grateful for.
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