Feb 28, 2015


Oswald Gould, Navy Petty Officer 2nd Class on Angel Duty now.
We called him Ossie, my cousin. Today makes it one week since he has passed, gone on heaven ways leaving us to cope with his absence and find a way to move forward regardless. The world marches on without missing a beat, time not stopping just kept on ticking. Some days I go on without a hiccup. Some days I stop feeling like I have been slammed into a wall and I can’t breathe and I have to sit down.
Oswald (Ossie)
Oh cous, you will be missed. You were well loved, though at times like all of us you probably didn't always feel it as much when the family dynamics came into play. That's life; we all have our story to tell on that score.
I was the baby in my branch of the family but among all 9 of us kids Ossie was the baby. He was very handsome. God sure did take his time moulding him from beginning to end. He got the lion's share of masculine beauty plus that of the guy behind him in line, the guy in the middle of the line and the guy at the end of the line. He was cute as all get out. A gift I think at the times he felt was more of a curse than a blessing because whenever we had events Ossie use to have to hide from girls because they literally plastered themselves on him (I kid you not) while others flock to him like bees to honey. It was hilarious to see the “help me” look skitter across his face as he anxiously span the crowd looking for Tantie Jacqueline (his mom). My dear sweet handsome cousin was terrified. We all laughed at his expense of course kids being kids but he was seriously scared. He would run behind Tantie Jacqueline to hide sometimes begging her to protect him and keep him safe. When I think of those days I smile as I am smiling now.
Fast forward eons later, he the grown man, me the grown woman, living worlds apart. We managed to keep a connection through long phone conversations and mini texts back and forth, it wasn’t ideal but, it’s what family does, make the effort to say connected.
If you are reading this cous, yeah am talking to you, (don’t be rolling your eyes at me) thought you were gonna get a break huh, right! You keep dreaming buddy, you are not off the hook mister sweet delight, you are on angel duty now so check in, stay connected and lemme know what’s ahead when I hit a blind spot.
Love you much,
Hitting it straight from the hips not letting it slip, yeah I know, corny as hell but you loved me that way, gotta keep it one hundred as per usual…..
I admired your courage through the battle of stage 4 Nasopharyngeal Cancer.  You fought valiantly and surpassed all the limitations and boundaries they gave you.


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    1. Thank you....
      I am dealing moment by moment

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    1. Thank you cous, coming from you that is high praise.

  3. Greg Sr.

    Good morning and thank you for sharing. I feel a kindred spirit between you and Ossie. I can certainly read why he will be missed, like you, a humble heart.

    Stay warm my dear.

  4. this is a beautiful ode. sorry for your loss but then, he's on angel duty.
    may he rest in peace

    1. Thank you...
      that's right, am not letting him off the hook that easy, angel duty it is.

  5. It is hard to know if the words people speak to comfort the grieving actually do. May your sadness not be long but may you be comforted by the sweet memories you have of your cousin. I remember how I felt losing mine in 1989. It wasn't until he came to me to tell me that I could stop crying because he was alright and everything was going to be alright that I was able to find the peace I needed. I will never forget that. I am, though, sorry to hear that Ossie has passed. May he never be too far from your thoughts.

    1. hmmmmm, thank you for your empathy
      moment by moment is the plan, moment by moment

  6. My condolences to you and your family...

  7. Sorry for your loss Rhapsody so sad.
    Love your post x

  8. My condolence...love this post, May your cousin continue to RIP

    1. Thank you.
      I believe he is at peace, this journey of illness was horrendous

  9. Rest in peace to your cousin. I pray God grants you and your family to bear the loss.

    Atilola's World

    1. Thank you.....
      Each of us is taking it in our own way, processing while still living our lives.

  10. You are the second of my blogger friends who had a passing in their family this week. It's hard to find the words without being too wordy so all I will say is that I am truly sorry.

    1. Yeah, words are in many ways inadequate though it helps when people reach out in empathy.
      thank you

  11. my sincerest condolences to you and your family. i read the memoriam, seems like he was a great guy.

  12. I am extremely sorry to read this. May God give you and the family strength to bear this irreparable loss. Please accept my heartfelt condolences. May God grant him eternal peace and ever lasting happiness.

    Yours in sorrow, Joseph

  13. I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your beloved cousin. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Your wonderful cousin sounds like a precious jewel.

    I'm also sorry it has taken this long to get over here to say hi. As you know, I don't get to blog very often anymore with all the caregiving and other "life" stuff going on.

    I hope you're having a nice weekend!

    1. Blessings and thank you.
      Its never too late to express empathy and sympathy.

      stay blessed and take care

  14. Sorry for your loss, Rhapsody. May peace be unto him.


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